For You

You can take away my future

But you cannot take away our past

You can refrain from ever talking

But your words will always last

You can torment me cold-heartedly

But you cannot undo joys of long ago

You can cease from befriending me

But you cannot force me to be your foe

You can walk away from my life

But you cannot ever leave my mind

You can separate our solid bodies

But our souls will be forever bind

You can forget me for eternity

But you cannot wipe out my memories

You can tarnish my realities

But you cannot alter my fantasies

You can break my heart to pieces

But you won’t leave its core

You can shatter up my moon

But my stars would be more

You can make me cry a river

But you can’t erase our once-shared laughs

You can replace me with another soul

But I’ll eternally be your other-half

You can destroy my happiness,

You can take away my faith,  

My pride, my joy, you can crush them all,

You can fill your heart with hate,

        

Even my life-with no doubt-you can demolish, can derange

But my love for you, my dearest one, would never ever change

After a Lifetime of Being Invisible

…

Where have all the butterflies gone?

                               Did they follow me?

        or did she make them disappear?

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Silence (to break or not to break…that is the question)

Whenever you’re about to break the silence,
always ask yourself two questions before you do:


1. Is what you’re about to say more glorious than the silence surrounding you?


2. Is it worth it?

Inner peace

 

I have found where I belong

Here is where I feel most safe

I take refuge in what I do

In each line

In each word

I heal

I feel such joy

I feel such pain

And I drench myself in the sweetness of it all

Please don’t take these moments away from me

At last

I have found my inner peace

Tu es mon étoile.

Withered

Today I died again…

Like a dog who’s been put out of his misery

Like a sick plant that’s been shrivelled in the sun

Like a puppet that’s no longer loved by its puppeteer

Pathetic

Decayed

  and

Useless

Today I died again…

                   but

What I didn’t know was that I was already dead!

Deliverance

        

Tonight I have a special guest

This time I know when he’s coming

And this time he’s not leaving

I took my time preparing

Everything must be perfect for his arrival

I picked his favourite flowers:

Red Oleanders

And bathed in them

With music and candles

I have to look my best for him

I’m wearing my favourite perfume

The most memorable scent in the world

I’m wearing my two silver pendants

The ones so dear to my heart

I’m wearing my scarlet shoes

The pair I save for special occasions

It won’t be long now

I’ve waited a lifetime

I’m wearing my finest dress

So he’d know how much he means to me

I’m wearing my blood red lipstick

So he’d kiss me endearingly; passionately

I’m wearing his oleanders in my hair

So he’d see how much I’ve been longing for his warm embrace

I open my oldest bottle of wine

As I anticipate his arrival

Sitting with a racing heart

And an armful of red oleanders

I’ve missed him so dearly

I’ve been aching to see him

I catch my breath

Here he comes now

My special guest of honour

I close my eyes and smile

I greet him with open arms

My love

My dear old friend

My salvation

…My DEATH

 

                                              

Is to me

                  My salvation

                                   

Another Part of Me

Last night I found my soul

He was soft, beautiful and had a velvet skin

He was tall, proud and strong

I was scared and he was brave

Brave like a Snow Tiger

He protected me from harm

He comforted me when I cried

He laid his head in my lap and I didn’t feel alone

Last night I saw my soul for the very first time

And I forgot to ask his name

I forgot to hug him tight and never let go

I forgot to tell him

How much I love him

How much I’ve missed him

How much I need him

Last night I found him and when I woke up

He was gone…

(Inspired by Philip Pullman’s idea in his book "His dark Materials" 

                                                       and

                                        Inspired by a dream I had) 

Withered

Today I died again…

    I was left out in the dumpster to rot

Pathetic

  and

Useless

Fallen Angel

They captured me, tied me up and beat me till I was half dead…



They put thorns in my eyes and tortured me until I was blind…



They cut off my wings, tied weights around my ankles, then punched a hole through my chest…



Aching, screaming, burning, spitting filth, and crying blood, they kicked me off to earth yelling:




LIVE!!!

Silence

I feel like I’m drowning in your eyes
I blink back my tears with each word I tell you
I choke back my scream with every breath I take
You were my God; I was your stepping stone
You were my reason to live; I was your reason to go
I only saw your best; you only saw my flaws
I gave you my heart and soul
I gave you my very life
Yet all you give me is your deadly silence.

Silence

Like a child
You laughed
and it broke into a million pieces
and they all echoed back at me
and greeted me
Like a million familiar friends
Welcoming me back to the world
and then
There was silence.